Mackenzie’s MMP. Poetry: The Motivations of a Caregiver

Mary Lennox’s Mother:

Disappointment 

How can she be mine?

I don’t see myself in her eyes.

My beauty, my spirit, my status, it

becomes lost in her dull expression.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this 

for mother and her daughter.

She’s sad, she’s difficult, she’s ill,

and I can’t hide my disappointment.

I wasn’t meant for a life like this.

I was expecting a life of ease. 

She requires so much attention,

And I just don’t have the patience.

I’ll find somone capable, of course,

to watch her as she grows.

She’ll have eveything a child could want 

I’m sure she’ll be just fine.

George:

Protection

I had you and you had me,

we had our futures set. 

But it was a dream, just a fantasy,  

I’m not sure where you fit. 

I love you I really do, 

we’ve been partners this whole time.

But I know what’s best for you,

and you don’t know where to draw the line. 

It couldn’t be like this forever,

maybe it’s better me than them. 

Close your eyes and look ahead,

and I’ll relieve you from this pain.

Eva Peace:

Liberation

To my shadow of a son,

It’s time for you to go.

If you can’t live like a man, 

Then you’ll die like one.

That is my last act of love. 

You wouldn’t leave and 

you wouldn’t grow.

My womb has no more space,

so, this is where I say goodbye. 

I’ll hold you and I’ll rock you here,

I’ll let you be my child. 

But then I’ll keep my tears away,  

And I’ll do what must be done. 

Mr. Radley:

Self-preservation 

The community whispers 

outside our door.

Please just stay inside

where you can’t cause us more pain.

Joanne Madsen:

Concern 

Who cares for you?

Who makes sure your safe?

Who listens to your worries?

Who asks what you want?

Who will be your advocate,

when you can’t speak for yourself?

Who knows what makes you happy?

Who tells you that it’s okay to be you?

Ricky Hernandez:

Sympathy

He looks at me with those sad eyes as I hold him in this room.

Just a driver, now in charge of discipline. 

I want to show them kindness, respect, consistency. 

These kids don’t see that often, 

But my job is to to show up when I get the call,

 to constrain and remove. 

One day, probably soon, I’ll leave this place,

but I find myself hesitant. 

I didn’t think it would be so hard. 

I didn’t expect to love them so much… 

Jimmie Kenrick:

Acceptance 

Just can just call me Jimmie.

You don’t have to call me mom,

you don’t have to call me anything.

We have our own rhythm,

we have a special click,

we have an understanding.

You don’t have to call me mom,

you don’t have to call me anything.

You can just call me Jimmie.

I have created poems based on the point of view of various characters from novels we have read throughout the semester. These are characters that have found themselves in some sort of caregiver position. These characters include Eva Peace from Toni Morrison’s Sula, Ricky Hernandez, Jimmie Kenrick and Joanne Madsen from Susan Nussbaum’s Good Kings, Bad Kings, Mr. Radley in Harper Lee’s To Kill a Mockingbird, Mary Lennox’s mother in Frances Hodgson Burnett’s The Secret Garden, and George from John Steinbeck’s Of Mice and Men. These characters, whether parents, paid professionals, or friends, are put into the role of having to take care of someone with a perceived disability. All of these characters were chosen to represent a range of different types of caregivers and how successful they are in fulfilling their role. The first-person narratives allow for the exploration of the motivations behind these characters’ actions and the corresponding pieces reflect the character’s motivating emotion. Eva Peace was overwhelmed as her role of a mother of a child with a mental disability. Her son did not fit the expectations she had for him and that ultimately led her to orchestrate his death. This could be comapred to George killing Lennie in the end of Of Mice and Men. George was a friend but also a protector to Lennie. Throughout the novel they say they look out for each other, but it is never truly an equal partnership. George often acts according to what he feels is best for Lennie, but perhaps sometimes his actions are for selfish reasons. This raises the question of whether or not his killing of Lennie was really to protect his friend or to relieve himself from the stress of a caregiver position. Either way, he makes the decisions about what happens in Lennie’s life. Other caregivers, such as Mr. Radley and Mary Lennox’s mother, will keep their children at a distance. Maybe they can never accept their child’s differences or maybe they are unwilling to make the necessary adjustments to their own lifestyles in order to care for their children, either keeping them locked away in the house, as Mr. Radley does, or giving the responsibility to a paid worker, as Mary Lennox’s mother does.  

There are positive examples of caregivers, too. Joanne Madsen, Ricky Hernandez, and Jimmie Kendrick from Good Kings, Bad Kings all behave more appropriately in their interactions with those they care for. Joanne, while not specifically a paid caregiver in the nursing home, offers the children guidence in accepting their identities as people with disabilities. She also looks after the best interest of all of the residence of the home. She treats the children as individuals and gives them room to grow and express themselves. Ricky, while he struggles with the ethics of his job, also tries to treat the children as individuals. He cares for them on a more emotional and personal level than many of the other paid professionals in the home. Lastly, Jimmie’s personal connection with Yessenia Lopez influences her decision to become her foster parent. All of these positive representations are similar in the way that they allow the other person to be an individual, not defined solely by disability. In cases where caregivers are unsucccessful in their roles, it is because they cannot accept the individual, whether that takes the form of making decisions about what happens to that person or releasing themselves from the caregiver role altogether. 

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Word count: 564

Shelby Steele’s Response to “Good Kings, Bad Kings”

Susan Nussbaum’s “Good Kings, Bad Kings” is not only commentary on how disabled people are treated in institutions, but also how many of these institutions are run for profit, not for fair treatment of the disabled children living within them. They are focused on making another dollar and do not care for the residents as much as they should. 

    In this portion of the reading (pgs. 143-205) the character Michelle Volkmann, who works for Whitney-Palms, is tasked with assessing people who may have mental and/or physical disabilities to determine if they belong in institutions. She only has one chapter in this portion but it is very important in showing the reader how places such as ILLC, Illinois Learning and Life Skills Center, care more about the money than their residents. Michelle talks about Riverwood, another institution under the parent company Whitney-Palm, and the death of a girl who lived there. The girl was found tied to a wheelchair, though she had the ability to walk, and died because she suffocated from the tightness of her ties. Though she was said to have been frequently checked up on, it took the aides over six hours to realize she was dead. After mentioning this death, Michelle moves right into how money comes into play. She seems apathetic towards the girl and more focused on Tim, her boss, and his anger. He is angry about the fine Whitney-Palms will have to pay because the parents of the girl want an investigation. Michelle says there is no reason for him to be upset, as Whitney-Palms will most likely not pay the fine because “it’s not like anyone ever pays the fines anyway.” (188).  When she speaks to Tim about her ideas for updating their technology, he thinks it’s a good idea but he wants her to think of more ways to increase their revenue instead. They discuss the idea of putting three beds in each room instead of the normal two. They focus on how they can save money from this, but do not even mention how the residents would be negatively impacted. 

    Michelle then speaks of the Pine Hills case, in which a sexual predator was placed in a room with a child after the institution was given specific instructions to give him a room by himself. Though Tim says they fired the person responsible for the placement of the sexual predator, giving him his own room would have cost Whitney-Palms more money. Michelle mentions another fine Whitney-Palm will have to pay due to the Pine Hills case, saying “some politicians said it should be bigger than what we usually pay.” (191). The only sympathetic response Michelle ever has towards both of these instances is when she says “The thing that led to the fine was really sad.” (191). Besides this sentence, she is apathetic, except when she says Tim deserves to pay a fine because the little kid who was molested hung himself. 

    Michelle Volkmann, like the company she works for, is focused on getting her paycheck and moving on. She does not care for the residents, and simply does her job. Though this can be said for the majority of society, it is concerning she never has a thought to ‘rebel’ or speak up against the wrongdoings of Whitney-Palms. 

I pledge: Shelby Steele

Word Count: 556

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